It hurts.

Siiiiiiiiiiiiigh........there's too much on my mind to actually type it all here on my blog. I wish this darn thing could just suck the thoughts outta my minds sometimes, too mad technology's not that advanced yet eh? Ahaha, well maybe it's better I just give a long sigh around here too. Feels better, kinda... Hey, have you ever wondered how it is to be free? Have you ever how it felt to be lonely? Not lonely as in there's no one in the room or something, but just....lonely. No one to trust, nothing to feel, nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. Gloomy world isn't it? No one cares one single bit even if you're hurt, sick, or even deppresed. When sometimes you kinda just wanna die right there eh? Sigh. It hurts. Ya know? It really, really hurts. Not your friends, not your family. I know I should be grateful and all, that I've got a house and food and all that. But is it wrong to just want someone that you can fully, trully trust? Someone that just cares about you, someone who knows you're in pain, or someone to share secrets with fully and share your joy and happiness. Someone to depend on? Maybe I'm just selfish. Maybe like my sister said, I'm just a dimwit...a crybaby, a moron. Ah, what a life...I maybe be tought physically, but not at all mentally, punches by some burglar hurts less than a lil injury by your sister, aha......sigh. Well that's enough moaning, though not to mention after thinking how no one cares about me, I thought about suicide, but ah well, I guess I'll live a lil longer eh?

Drowning in a lowly pond showered in the heavy rain...