Stressed, will or motivation?

Hey you know, I've been stressed lately. Well yeah I can understand people's lives always will have their ups and downs. But this duration of stress and gloom is way too long. Yeah yeah, maybe it's my fault, maybe it's not. I don't know. I just don't know. I try to catch up with what I'm supposed to do, but I end up procrastinating, and by the time I finally do catch up, I'm already late yet again and I have to chase after the new duties I have to do. I'm a school kid, and I'm a gal. For Pete's sake just lend me a hand someone. But hey, maybe it's some sort of trial I have to face by myself. It's no use just blabbing away for nothing too, while I'm typing this I have some major assignment I have to do too, jeeeze....When will the cycle stop?! Maybe never...

Well, the main point is, what can keep me going? Something to strive for, hope for, try for... Have you ever thought of that? What actually keeps you going? What pushes you forward? What purpose? A will? Yes, that's it. Some sort of fiery will, some sort of perseverance, something that just keeps you going...But really, what does? What does, for me? Why am I doing this? Why are you doing whatever you do? Why? Heh, sometimes I get motivated for a little while, but it's quickly drowned by more people getting in the way....I mean, when you try hard, and have a plan in mind to fix yourself, and someone ruins it, without any beneficial purpose, wouldn't you be mad? Sigh...what I would do to live a simple life. But I guess I don't, won't and never will. Well, enough chitter chatter, hope someday I find that fiery inspiration, something to strive for...

In a comic I read recently the main character once said this,

"I believe, everything I do and learn now, even though it may seem pointless at the moment, will be useful for me in the future."

- Negi Springfield.

I'm not exactly certain of the precise words, but the most important part is the meaning, you get the meaning? Then, why not we try, all of us, together, for a better world? A better future...

Glowing and sometimes shut, like a firefly blinking in the night sky...